Happy Valentine's Day :-)

Dear ******,

I really can't believe how happy I am to recieve this card full of "hugs" from you and what you wrote in there about how you'd like to send many hugs from ***** :-)

Anyway, how are you doing *****? It's been ages since I heard from you. How is life with you? I so want to talk to you right now but I don't even know how to reach you and where you are at the moment. Life takes so many turns at times but sometimes it makes people very distant for no particular reason. Well I believe it is all fate (well not entirely), we all come in this universe with our fate written up there somewhere in gods' files or probably computers these days or something similar.

Anyway, i am very happy today and am playing the silly music of your **** while I am writing to you. May St. Valentine brings looots of love and happiness for you during this year.

Lots of love and thinkiing about you .... ..... :-) *hugz*

Always Yours
Me

Peter Pan!

I saw Peter Pan; a show which I felt was so good that I feel this need to mention it today over here. I have heard of Cathy Rigby’s gymnastic abilities but now I am her fan because of her performance in the show.
If you haven’t seen it yet, it is still not too late to go watch it, they are still here at our lovely proctors till 15th. I saw the movie Peter Pan very recently only because “the sucker” wouldn’t let me go home unless I watch this movie with him, so I did and I fell in love with it. And yesterday, Patrick gave me an opportunity to watch the show, when I had no plans to go and see it. Cathy Rigby’s performance was great, and her gymnastic abilities made her character looked very real and very Peter Pan-ic type. I think I am in love with her, NOT.

I am going to watch Phantom of the Opera sometime next week, depends when the gang is willing to go and get drunk after. So perhaps it will be a Friday or a Saturday.
I will give reviews after I see it. Again, I am expecting it will be better than the movie, which I absolutely love already. Especially the music.

Goodbye 2005

The year 2005, a great year, a very fine year, and a very successful year of my life. This was a year full of achievements, the achievements which I am proud of. All my tactical moves and decisions brought me good results. Gods have been very merciful and stood by me with many of my bold and blunt decisions. A year, I took many calculated risks and a year, when I didn’t waste my time in doing anything I didn’t want to. A year which, I will never forget because of its aura, its color, its splendor. A year of incredibly good results and a year full of vigor. (touch wood)

Good bye 2005 and welcome 2006. May this New Year bring peace and prosperity to my family, friends and my loved ones.

Congrats to Sir Elton John

Congratulations to Sir Elton John for making this commitment and my best wishes to both David and Elton.

If I don’t post anything before Xmas then merry Christmas to all of you and a very Happy New Year 

Where we are?

As humans, we have certain responsibilities on this planet. We are one of the most advance and intelligent race, which also give us the title of super race on this planet. If we all work towards the development of mankind, without getting involved in religious frenzy, there is a lot more which can be achieved.

People should not get involved with non-sense issues. Instead they should utilize that time in developing new methods, techniques etc. to help the mankind.

Any kind of fundamentalism should be outlawed. The punishments should be more severe, kids should be in better hands rather than in the hands of irresponsible parents. Education should rely on science and historical facts rather than fiction and fictional philosophies. ( … and on and on …I will add on to this when I have more time :-P)
…… Something like this I am going to say once I get elected in the office as the Governor of NY :-)

A Proud Canadian Moment.

“Days like yesterday make me a very proud Canadian” This a journalist friend of mine told me while he called me at work today from "k"anada.
Being that I am a very strong believer in equal rights, I am a huge advocate of the same-sex marriage bill anywhere across the globe and the one, that has been hotly debated there in Canadian parliament for close to two years. Yesterday, the House of Commons in Canada voted to pass the bill allowing same-sex couples to legally wed all across Canada, not just in certain provinces, as it currently stands. The bill still has to be passed and signed by the senators, but it looks as though, by the end of July, Canada will officially be the third country in the world to legalize gay marriage!
Fucking, eh.....

Review: Life of Pi

No other book has antagonized me as my latest read, the book by Yann Martell, Life of Pi. While I was reading it, it was hard to put the book down. When I was listening to it’s CDs in my car, I would sit in for a few extra minutes just to know, what is about to happen next. But from the day one, I didn’t like the book and I could tell, I do not like what I am reading/listening but I kept on listening to it and reading it.

Now yesterday, when I finally finished the book, I felt like screaming on and kicking and slapping the author. I feel cheated. I feel like this author cheated me big time. The end is ridiculous. The only thing, I like about it is that I was not able to put down this book. But I know, I read this book in camouflage.

Now, it comes to recommending the book. I would say, NO. Do not read it. Its been more than 24 hours since I finished the book but I still am having heartache because of it. I am angry. Honestly, I don’t recall if I have been ever angry after reading a fiction book, but this time I am.

somehow somewhere!

Hmmmm, last time I said, I am considering almost everything as personal .. so just to break the ice, here I am posting the letter, the one I wrote to my "first and perhaps the only love of my life" "AS IS" except the name.


Happy Birthday ***,

As we grow old we become wiser and older years are the best years of someone's life. You are supposed to be more mature, and now definitely qualify for the mighty wise fraternity of full adult people. I am not saying, past years were bad or something, but yeah we cherished/used those years and now time to move on and enter in the sane world. Well, hypothetically!

Anyway, I hope you are happy and still think about me once in a while. I do think about you. Frankly, I never really stopped. There are hardly any days when somehow somewhere in my mind, conscienceless or unconsciously you don't come in my thoughts. I am amazed by this, but don't know what it is, and what to call it and what to make out of it. There are so many things I want to talk about. There are so many things I want to tell. There are millions of questions I want to ask you. But, I don't know where I stand with all this. Do I even have right to tell you everything or even ask you everything. Sometimes, I wonder about it.

I hope you are achieving, whatever you have thrived for. And you are in between the people who love you and care about you.

I am so glad that you wrote to me on and I am feeling like you celebrated your Birthday with me. I don't know why, but now I am in both joyous and sad mood at the same time. No idea why .....

Anyway ***, I wish you all the best and bestest of wishes.

Yours,
Me

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I will appreciate if no questions are asked about any of the contents of this letter.
PHEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW, OFF TO TAKE A WALK!!!!!!!!!!

Hobnobbing!

Hello everyone, I'm sorry *not* I've not written much, actually make it “haven’t written at all” recently but I've been appallingly busy with several things. There are quite a lot of you reading this now and I do appreciate the comments and emails I receive off readers, so please bear with me if I seem to disappear from time to time.

And the not so good thing is, I still have nothing to write or say except that I have been really busy. Now, most of you would be wondering about this and must be thinking, what the heck is this dude’s problem, who doesn’t work a minute over his 35 hours a week schedule. How could he be busy. But honestly, trust me, I am.

Alright, the ones who are convinced about me being busy would say, alright, busy doing what? … HAH.Good question, is all I can say.

This is summer, and summer in New York is very short lived. Oh! and it comes once a year for a few months , so I try to live each and every moment of it, and that is what I have been doing, spending time with the people I love, walking, running, sitting admiring nature, feeding ducks (haven’t done it so far this summer), talk to fishes (yah we do that, me and a few of us), sleep with my windows open, whoring slutting as usual and so on.

I have been waiting for this summer for a long time, as in the last summer, I couldn’t do much for so many reasons. Although I did a whole bunch of stuff, but this year I am planning on doing 10 times more than I usually do. Therefore, if my postings are not on regular intervals, please forgive me. (the bona fide version of me would say, “deal with it”)

There, is one more reason, I haven’t been writing much lately. As time goes on, I am being more and more lucid about what to write and what not to write. And what I do and why I do. It’s a fact I don’t like to talk about my personal life, well not just with anyone, let leave it to the whole wide world. That’s because I believe, it’s “personal” for a reason.

Sorry, not trying to be coy here, just being honest. So, that leaves a lot of stuff out, and lately whatever I have been doing, I consider it as personal. I think.

But, I definitely need to redefine the word “personal”. I need to redefine personal for real, beacuse with this speed; soon I won’t have anything to write up here. That means, everything is gonna end up in my secret diary which would be made public after a few hundred years as I do intend to live a looong looong life :-)

I have so many things to write about. A lot has happened since I wrote in here, but the reason there was no blog entry from me was that I didn’t have time.
Usually to write here, I get plenty of time and I look for something interesting which has happened so that I can write about it. But lately that hasn’t been the case. I have been so busy recently I was hardly home and it made me impossible to have a few moments of peace so that I can sit relax and write my blog:

I would hate to not mention about my last few action-packed weeks, but then it would require a lot of time on my behalf to write, which I refuse to do so. So I am doing a little briefing.

Fighting with your friends about who should pay and who shouldn’t is kindda a normal thing, but have you ever imagined fighting with a lady double of your size because she refused to take money from you and instead took the money from your friend .. LOL yah that would be one and only oglie booglie “olga” .. (I am so going to tell about this event in detail, but not today. It happened on some rest area when we were coming back from Woodbury Commons)
“Fountain day” – This was the 6th fountain day in a row which I attended at SUNY, and this year I was not even supposed to, but I did anyway. It felt great to jump into the water like good old days, with my girls and guys of course :-P - (pictures to be followed)

Oh! And think about this -- ring ring -- ring ring – liz calling – ring ring – you pick up the phone and say HELLO, and u hear the “sobbing” and then “hi hunniieeeee, *sobbing* I cut my fingure and I lost my job” --- you'd say WHAT? .. more sobbing and then again, just like that old record .. “Sukrit, I cut my finger and I was bleeding, and there were people in the line and I still tried to help *SOB* and they fired me” and at that stage sobbing turned into crying … HAHAHA ooops, sorry, I think that was kindda funny … yah I would have written more but time constraint and ya know, to respect liz’s privacy and other crap I am ending it up right here :=P

Aight other “very short briefings”
- Visited Aunt, and honestly had great time :-P .. she was.. umm amazingly different.
- Making the Shmuck come over and go shopping with the gang
- Making all the non-hindi speakers listen to so called “Hindi-Crap” (in their words)
- Casino with the gang, actually I should say with the MEN, cuz she refuses to be called a girl … YAH, go figure who that would be.
- Taking pictures of “them & us” while .. ummm, I shouldn’t say, HAHAHA (well, I will post them here and you can see by yourselves .. so pics to be followed, I think!)
- Sleepovers, haha
- Bars, bars, bars and more bars.
- Getting drunk outside and inside the bars
- Getting MORE drunk, and losing the way back home, HAHAHA, yeah, for the first time in my life.
- Got high again, umm, yep, don’t ask where and when and with whom.
- OH AND other stuff .. LOLOL .. umm yah not mentioning cuz you know the rules :-P

So yeah, when I m bored at home in near future, I am going to put a little more light on these events (again, no promises) .. ..

I am Going to THE City tomorrow, wohoooo, will report back after I come back, untill then, "Jai Ram Ji Ki"

Shuffle!

"iPod shuffle"; yeah, what an invention! It's like, we have never heard of anything like this before. No media player/real player/any other player was able to perform this shuffling function before. Give me a break!

It’s amazing how an intelligent company can come up with the dumb ideas. (well, in this case it’s brilliant because public bought the idea, which isn’t even original” … humans! what can we say!)

I remember having a CD walkman with the shuffle feature about 10 years ago. But God, seriously, this hyped up item is proving the insanity of my race (human race? :-P ).

The way this item is being advertised on TV commercials, makes me laugh, and I didn’t hear anyone, literally anyone, saying that this is not a new concept.

But oh well, I also got this item, NOT because I was swayed away by the advertisements or anything, only because it is a very sleek item and can hold about 250 of my favorite songs and with this WONDERFUL shuffling feature :-D

Happy Birthday Matthan

Happy Birthday Matthan :-)

Great Dinner
Awesome Wine
Bestest “ya know” not saying weeeeeed .. ooopsy :-P (my second time)
And … Ummmm NO *no comments*

How about to conclude if I say , I had a great time and I got home safe and sound :-)

A Quote I found.....says it all

"Relationships--of all kinds--are like sand held in your hand. Held loosely, with an open hand, the sand remains where it is. The minute you close your hand and squeeze tightly to hold on, the sand trickles through your fingers. You may hold onto some of it, but most will be spilled. A relationship is like that. Held loosely, with respect and freedom for the other person, it is likely to remain intact. But hold too tightly, too possessively, and the relationship slips away and is lost."

I don't know who wrote this, but I liked it so very much that this quote found a place in my blog .. lol .. but serioulsy, it is the best someone can explain in so few words. *applauds*

I am listening to Tina Turner's "I am a private dancer...I dance for money" haha, I am a big fan for her and her songs these days. Oh and BACKSTREET BOYS are back. That is what .. ummm i don't remember who, but a semi-friend told me yesterday. They are about to release a new Album after a gap of 5+? years ... woohoooo

Have you noticed all random things today I am writing about? :-P :-)))))))))

Shame on Canadian Justice System!

Ehhh.., Nothing much to write today as I am not in a good mood today. To be specific, I am a little angry. This is definitely a Black Day for Canadian Justice System. Shame on Canadian Justice System for letting the killers of 329 people walk free. Shame on the entire Sikh community for celebrating the acquittal of the mass murderers. It was indeed a black day for the humanity. Let’s just hope Gods punish these killers and I bet they will and the humanity will have a last laugh. I am being a little optimistic here, eh? Yah, that’s all I can hope for at the moment.

Shame on Bush’s administration for denying the Visa to Chief Minister Modi. And the reasons cited for the denial are rubbish. This means any nation can deny Visa to Bush by quoting the war on Iraq.

And in Cricket, stoooopid retarded BLIND Buckner once again gave Sachin OUT when the ball missed the bat by INCHES. Buckner should be fired and ICC should hire some neutral umpires, who can see and not biased.

Which city was built in one day?

Rome was not built in one day (or so they say). Come to think of it, why Rome. I mean, any great city took years and years to build. So why the hell Rome!?...And for that matter, who the hell are "they"? “They” always have a lot to say yet we have no idea who “they” are... anyhow, I am getting off the subject here...

What about New York City, London, New Delhi .. or even Albany. For heaven’s sake, these so called intellectuals should stop citing these stupid and senseless phrases. I would recommend we change that Rome to “Any City”. Do you have a better idea?

At Work!

At work, to a question of mine, which was “What is the purpose of my life?” I got the response: “To make others feel superior!” ….. God dammit! I disagree!!!!!!! I totally disagree. I dunno maybe this being was riteeeee, but there is no fooking way I am gonna make “that” the fooking purpose of my life … grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Anyway, yah so after second thought and third thought and a few more thoughts, I kind of realize why I would get that kind of answer from people.

Oh well, what the hell! So what if that is the purpose of my life? I am happy the way I am and moreover, “I am the way I Am and I will always be” … :-)))))))))) yah bite me :-P

So yah, I had a kick ass weekend, not gonna tell what I did or who I did or whatever :--) Lets just say that I was a happy camper, howzz that? :--)

And it’s Monday, I am totally sober, and surprisingly had a great day at work (bUzy) (BuZY). Went out for a walk with the gang, had lunch at that Thai restaurant, later made coffee in the staff room, HATED it, so threw it in the sink and got latte instead from my favorite coffee shop :--)

---Now that’s work.

The Name!

I wanted to share this story with the people I know, and a few of you already know about it, but this is the first time I am mentioning it up in one of my writings.

Let me ask you this, Do anyone of you had difficulty telling your name to someone when you were a kid? I don’t think so, but in my case it was a different story.

I was about 7 years old when we moved to our newly built house in New Delhi. I vaguely remember visiting the house when it was being built. I also remember asking my dad to build a walk-in closet (we call it store in India) in my room.

Anyway, that is not what I am going to tell you about. Yah, so I was like 7. We just moved in to this new house, my mum dad and dunno who else were still taking boxes and boxes inside, and during that time, the prince aka “I” declared that he is hungry. My dad said, no problem. He went out, and there was a lady standing in front of the house next to ours. He exchanged greetings like he knew her for loooong loooong time, maybe they knew each other cuz my dad did spend a little over a year in building that house, so God knows! And next thing, I know she invited me in for food, yeah!!! Don’t ask!

While, I was in there all by myself with her and she asked me the obvious question. “What is your name?”

Oh my my my!!! Believe it or not, what I am going to tell you now is something so weird but true..

I was like, what is my name, hmmm let’s see. In school teachers call me “Kamal”, cuz my grand father gave me that name and neither my mum nor I ever liked that name, so that is a NO NO. One of my aunts would call me Monu but that is the only one who used to call me Monu, so nah that cannot be my name. One of my Dad’s friends would call me Vikki/Vicky, AGAIN, I HAVE NO IDEA WHY. I dunno why, but people would call me with different names for some VERY SOLID ODD reason (I think I might wanna do some research on this one at some point)

Anyway, back to the lady. And then I thought about saying Shalley, cuz that is what my mum calls me. And then I was like NO FUCKING WAY, my mum calls me that, so there is no way, I would let this lady call me Shalley (I guess I was unclear about the concept of having the name, or why we have names and stuff)

And the Irony is, at that time, I had no Idea that my legal name would be Sukrit, so there was no way of me knowing that, and telling her that name to end this agony.

Well, it’s not over yet. To make a poor 7 years old more confused (trust me, it can’t get worse), my Dad would never call me twice with the same name. He would call me, Beta, Bitti, Bitto, , Shaan, Son ETC. ETC. ETC. (he still does that) .. and god knows what else, and honestly speaking, I still don’t know with what name he addresses me most.

So, there I was poor me! trying to answer one of the MOST difficult question of my life. Even though, half of the people in my family do call me Shalley, but I wouldn’t let this lady call me that, cuz it’s what my mum calls me!! Go Figure!!!!!.

So, after doing some calculations, manipulations and other thinking, I opened my mouth. I swear to God, I dunno why and how, but this four letter word came out from my mouth. And that was “RAJU”. And then for next 10 years this Raju was the most popular kid of the block, the menace, the devil, the charmer, the player, who was the favourite of all his friends mums and who was the biggest flirt till the date he lived in that neighborhood.

There are many more stories about this name business of mine to tell, like the kids would ring the door bell on the next day “when I invented this new name for myself” and would say to my mum , Is Raju here?, and then my mum would say RAJU WHO.., alas!, she had no idea at that time that at one point of her mighty son’s life time, this Raju name will overtake all his other given names.

And now, if I think about how many people call me Raju, Even though in the States no one calls me Raju, but that still stand strongly around 25%. Yeah!. That many people still know me by that name and call me Raju. It is closely followed by Sukrit and Shalley with 20-25% each and then Shaan a distant 4th.

So, this is the story about my names!!! And Shakespeare once very wisely said “What’s in a name”. I guess he was right!!!!!!

Holy Cow

I just finished reading this book called “holy cow: an Indian adventure”. Why did I pick this book? Well, a few months ago someone at the library suggested it and as I tend to not go for suggested reads, I totally ignored that suggestion. But last week, I happened to find this book in front of me, and the cover caught my attention. I picked up the book because of the unique color of the cover. Then I saw the picture of Lord Shiva on the main page wearing sunglasses and looking stunningly modern. And there I was flip flopping with the pages and instantly made up my mind to read the book.

If I say I liked this book because it didn’t do India’s bashing, wouldn’t be a lie. Although, I do not agree with the author on a lot of occasions but I still want to give her the credit for trying to project a realistic image of the different cultures, foods, people and stuff.

Anyway, yeah a good read and a very well crafted book highlighting the beauty of the varied land. It would very much feel like you are reading a fiction book, so yah go ahead and pick it up when you get chance 

Alright, I have nuttin else to talk about, so that would be it.

ughhh!

It’s really depressing over here, I saw tears even in B****’s eyes. I was trying to be tough and strong, but I can’t take it anymore. So, I am going to vent. And this time, I am mad at Gods or whoever is up there, down there or somewhere controlling our lives or may be just something ….

Life is not a piece of cake and death is a truth, but still untimely death of people antagonizes me and tells me that it is so not fair.

I am angry at those who end their own life without even considering the agony they would be causing to their near and dear ones. When, I heard of Holly’s death, it made me sad and I was shaken. I actually still think about her and the hug she gave me a week before she ended her life. I didn’t really know her or know anything about her, but she was someone I knew for a while from friends, clubs and .. hugs. If knowing someone just this little bit can have this much of impact on me, and then I can see how much pain her death might have caused to her close friends and family members ….

RIP Rich – 2.28.05
RIP Holly – 2.14.05


To prevent suicide please look out for your friends and near and dear ones:
• You don't have to be a trained professional to help a young person experiencing suicidal thoughts.
• Take all suicide threats seriously.
• You can help by offering emotional and practical support, by listening and by helping to link the person with professional help.

Anything & Anything

I don’t know anything about anything and something about that anything I am going to write about. Now, the question is, how am I going to write anything about something I have no idea what that is.

It is really interesting and might be a little amusing that I am trying to achieve something by not having any target. But, I do have the motive. I am trying to write something and what better purpose one can have other than this.

Now, I can’t even say “let’s come to the point”, because there is no point. It’s so funny right now, as in a usual scenario when there is no point; nothing can and should be said there. But here I am trying to rattle about something which doesn’t even exist. I am laughing at myself for trying to be a smart ass, and I don’t think I should carry on anymore.

Aren’t I witty? :--)