Wednesday, January 31, 2007

The wicked Monday!

Here I am again, a little shattered but not shaken and eager to move on. Yesterday wasn’t a bad day, neither was it a great day, but I decided to talk to friends and keep the rhythm going so that I forget the series of unfortunate events of Monday.

It all started when I reached at work on Monday. I passed by two coworkers and we didn’t exchange greetings. After settling down I decided to go for my coffee run and I was being told that Albert passed away. The news of Albert’s death shook me. He was the greatest guy at work and we happened to be only two who would talk for hours about cricket and politics and India and life in general.
It didn’t even sink in totally when brother called and told me that a guy crashed into his new car. That made me so nervous that I felt like throwing up. That he was unhurt and there was only minor damage to the car and it was entirely other guy’s fault and he was very apologetic about it .. did help me a bit. But I was a total wreck after that call.
I am surprised about how fragile I can be especially, when I firmly believe that I am one of the strongest man on this earth …. I guess I need to do some rethinking about it and probably do something about this as well. Around 1 o’clock, I got out of the building to go home have some tea and relax for an hour or so and have some peace of mind. But nope, when I reached the parking lot I noticed I had a flat tire. Yup a flat tire! I don’t remember when the last time I had a flat tire and this is the first time since I have this car with run flat on it and that means no spare tire. I called the service shop and decided to take my car over there right away. I was so antsy at that time that I ran a red light. Yup I ran a red light. I don’t know what I was thinking and I do know that I did realize that I made a mistake but it was too late to do anything about it, all I saw slammed breaks on two cars and they missed me by inches. In that ordeal, I lost whatever sense I had left in me and I stalled my car right in between that intersection. My heart was pounding and right there I just wanted to SCREAM. I was courageous enough to look outside seeing those two cars backing up and leave. Another guy who was apparently waiting for me to move or do something looked at me and gestured like he was saying “come-on dude move”. I started my car and left the scene. It was 4:30 when I came back to work, picked up my bag and stuff and left for home. When I got home, I cancelled my dinner plans with friends and switched off my phone as I just needed a break from everything and life in general, so I took a nap.
Yesterday was a better day, but all day long I was very uneasy and antsy and aggregative, edgy (even according to my coworkers) and in a very fragile mode. All day long I had weird thoughts running in my mind. I made sure I talk to everyone I love and care about. And the ones I couldn’t talk to, I thought about how much I love them and miss them and thank Gods that they are in my life and how important they are for me. The ones who were not in my mind yesterday, I saw them in my dream ……!!
"Om Tryambhakam Yajamahe
Sugandhim Pushtivardhanam
Urvarukamiva Bandhanan
Mrityor Mukshiya Maamritat"

Friday, January 26, 2007

P.I.T.A. finally got a car!

I am only posting the pic at the moment as I have to jet, but still wanted to update about the car. At the end it was between VW Jetta and Ford Mustang. Mustang came out as the winner :-) .. look for yourself. P.S. PITA stands for my "Pain In The Ass" brother :-)

Monday, January 22, 2007

I, them and Gods!

I just needed to be reminded by this quote today … yeah one of those days. Whenever I am mad at someone, which is usually, when someone successfully takes away a little peace of mind from mighty me, I read this and feel better.
I do not agree with this quote whole heartedly, but it still soothes me and calms me down and instantly starts making me feeling better. The one part which bugs me about this quote is saying that people are often unreasonable…., I do not agree with that. There are a lot of unreasonable people around, but that would still make them of the size of a mole as compared to mountainous ethical, honest and reasonable people in this world.

People are often (sometimes) unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered;
Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.
What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have and it may just never be enough;
Give the world the best you have anyway.
You see, in the final analysis, it's all between you and God"S";
It was never between you and them anyway.

Saturday, January 20, 2007

Clinton or Kucinich?


This morning started with an awesome note. The news about Senator Clinton’s announcement of bidding for Democratic Party nomination brought me joy. She is an iron lady who is witty and has all the required skills and qualifications to become the United States next President. I was always impressed by her wittiness and glamour.

Being said all that, she is still not my first choice as the US next president. One person who caught my attention in last democratic primary is the one, who I would still support over Hillary, and that man is Ohio Senator, “Dennis J. Kucinich”. His liberal policies and boldness over the issues irrespective of criticism by his own party makes him one of the most honest politicians of the present time.

Thursday, January 18, 2007

Golda Meir!

There is no other woman leader in the world as great as Golda Meir. She was not only the first Prime Minister of Israel; she was issued the first ever Israeli passport after the creation of State of Israel. There is so much ga ga I can do and sing praises about her and her philosophies. But the following statement of hers’ is something which won my heart and I salute her for that.

The following picture means a thousand words and sadly it is still happening in that part of the world where sanity seems to be a never reaching theme. Because it is amazing to see how people can have little respect for human life and still sympathize with the killers of children, and innocent civilians. Ironically they support this evil cause of terrorism and won't oppose the suicide bombing of Israelites only because the killers, suicide bombers and these fkced up people belong to "their" religion.


Shame on those and shame on the philosophy which preaches this!

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

Life!

Go placidly amid the noise and haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons . Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even the dull and ignorant; they too have their story.
- Anonymous

Life is indeed too hectic and full of surprises and at times it seems like you can't deal with everything. So it is indeed good idea to relax and take it slow at times without worrying about the stuff you won't be able to do. So many times, I have been panicking about certain things, not finishing some important task on time, and at times I have spent hours and sometimes even days by just freaking out about something. But at the end things work out. They just do!

The latter part of the above quote is amazing, and it feels just right. Apart from one, two perhaps three… or maybe many times, I have been on good terms with almost all the people (evil excluded). I am bold, I am blunt, I speak the truth and I do speak up my mind but if you respect my views even if you don't agree with me, you still can be one of my best buddies. I do the same .. again in most cases. Listening to others is as important as voicing your own opinion. At the end it is YOU who has option to ignore the other. And it doesn't take much to spend some time listening to others no matter how ignorant & dull they are.

I am definitely going to apply this to my life a little more realistically and hopefully it will make me a little more open minded except of course on some issues which are very near and dear to me .

Monday, January 15, 2007

Research on a car!

Research on buying a new car is not easy, and especially when it is for your younger brother who has totaled two cars in as many years. I spent weeks in researching before I decided for a new 06 civic, which he didn’t take long in crashing and totaling it.
Anyway, when I was on phone with mum she suggested we should get him a better car this time, while giving all the credits to Gods that her kid survived such an accident. I actually laughed at the proposal first but then keeping in mind his track record now I myself think that “the safer the better”. When my brother and I were discussing about what kind of car would be the best choice, the first suggestion came out of his big mouth was “a Porsche”. Yeah and then it came down to a Mercedes CLK and now it is a Ford Mustang.
I actually love Mustangs and that is what I narrowed it down for him even last time when we were out doing car shopping. Honda Civic came out as a winner from nowhere and that too due to some situation which I am not going to mention here. Both I and him are not big fans of Japanese cars, actually the word “despising” them would be the right word. But after this accident that attitude is somewhat tainted now. So Civic is also in the running with other potential candidates. The other cars which we are thinking along with mustang & civic are Eclipse, Jeep Liberty and a Z4.
We are planning on making up our mind sometime this week, so if anyone has any suggestion please feel free to advice. And I will keep you guys posted with our decision. Until then “Jai Ram Ji Ki”.

Friday, January 05, 2007

"Discovery of India"


I have finally decided to read “Discovery of India” a book by India’s first Prime Minister. In past many years, I have read several books, including some fiction books but I always made sure I don’t read this book along with any from the self proclaim messiah of peace, M.K. Gandhi. The reason I had behind not reading books of Nehru and Gandhi is not just that I never believed in their philosophies. It is also due to the fact that I blame them for many problems India is still facing due to the blunders this duo made before and after the independence of India.
Anyhow, from past few months, I have been doing research about India’s real history, and it is surprising to see that, not much information about India’s glorious past is readily available. Don’t we believe that Indian civilization existed thousands of years ago? In India everyone is so proud of their ancient culture, their people, their religion, their kings and philosophers and of almost everything. But what happened? How come we don’t have any information on this? What happened to the glorious cities? Where did all the temples go? When were these grand temples turned into grand mosques? We know there were atrocities done to people by mughal regimes (Muslim invasion). Why we can’t find the information?
My quest to get the answers for these questions is making me read whatever little is written about India’s past.
I will give my reviews about “Discovery of India” after I am done reading the book. Which is going to be a while as I do have a busy life:-P